So the posting in between are getting longer and longer
But I don't think too many people keep up with my account anymore
So it all works out I suppose

So I'm another year older
It's been a heck of a year
I'll be interested to see how the current year will go
I'm hopeful

I'm stressed
But I'm happy
I never thought happy could really be for me
Like truly down and out sometimes overwhelmingly happy

Yea things aren't always easy
And they aren't perfect, but perfection is false
And I'm not false

And its close to another year in my relationship as well
Three years and I'm hoping many more
We're not perfect, but we're us
It's taken time for me to realize how people really should be
How a real relationship, not some screwed up mind game
Should really be

And I know I still have things to work on
I never really developed good communication skills
I hope I can fix them before they becomes an issue
It's hard to get my mind around the idea that my thoughts matter
Cause it seems so much and for so long they don't matter
People are always going to do what they want to do
So what I think about it doesn't count, that's how things have been for me

So I need to stop shutting off and responding
Say something, say a thought
I just always think I'm more clearer than I come off to be

So I suppose that's something to improve before my next birthday
There's always room for improvement

I'm happy